I find myself thinking constantly about my comfort, my looks, my feelings, and my future. I know it's not wrong to think about these things, but I believe that God's purpose for me is not to be comfortable. It is to be a witness to others, to love them the way that Christ has loved me. The purpose for how my life has turned out is coming together: the trauma I've been through, the addictions and strongholds I've struggled with, and the freedom that I am experiencing is all so that I can be an example and so that I can point those who need restoration to the one who restores!
Today was the first time since I've gotten home from treatment that I really struggled with food. I ended up eating too much, ended up justifying that I could overeat because, hey, it's the holidays, and I can just run it off tomorrow. Then God spoke to me; He said, "Anytime you're not taking care of your body, you're sinning against me". I stopped eating immediately and came to write this. God never said that I would never be tempted or never stumble, but I know that I have His grace. I know that He will forgive me for not taking care of my body and that He will guide me in how to handle the holidays without abusing my body or turning to food to soothe myself. I want to learn to rely on God in every way, to please Him and glorify Him in everything I do. I am to learn to rely on God rather than my own strength, because my strength means turning to food or dieting to cope. I am to overcome this so that I can be used to save others. It's not really about me at all.
Today I am so thankful for His patience and guidance! I love it when He peices my life together and gives me revelation. I am on a journey to find myself and discover my purpose and meaning. And I know that God is holding my hand the whole way =]
verses He has pressed upon my heart constantly:
ReplyDelete1 Corinthians 3:9-23
9 For we are God’s fellow workers; you are God’s field, you are God’s building. 10 According to the grace of God which was given to me, as a wise master builder I have laid the foundation, and another builds on it. But let each one take heed how he builds on it. 11 For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. 12 Now if anyone builds on this foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, 13 each one’s work will become clear; for the Day will declare it, because it will be revealed by fire; and the fire will test each one’s work, of what sort it is. 14 If anyone’s work which he has built on it endures, he will receive a reward. 15 If anyone’s work is burned, he will suffer loss; but he himself will be saved, yet so as through fire.
16 Do you not know that you are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you? 17 If anyone defiles the temple of God, God will destroy him. For the temple of God is holy, which temple you are. 18 Let no one deceive himself. If anyone among you seems to be wise in this age, let him become a fool that he may become wise. 19 For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, “He catches the wise in their own craftiness”;[a] 20 and again, “The LORD knows the thoughts of the wise, that they are futile.”[b] 21 Therefore let no one boast in men. For all things are yours: 22 whether Paul or Apollos or Cephas, or the world or life or death, or things present or things to come—all are yours. 23 And you are Christ’s, and Christ is God’s.
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1 Corinthians 6:19
19 Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? 20 For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body[c] and in your spirit, which are God’s.
Sorry I know that's a lot but they have both really spoke to me for the last few years so I figured I'd share!